Everything I read about wellness indicates it’s good to attend to the topics that trend in the reel to reel of verbal muzak playing constantly behind the scenes of my life.  It’s written that introspection is healthy, interesting, and enlightening.  And that one may then choose to address the topic, perhaps even to eradicate it from the playlist.

 In considering some of my most popular mental tunes, I wondered whether it really mattered if I attended to them.  Some of the lyrics are about actions or situations that are antique, long past the window of opportunity to actually change them, and some of the topics are so small as to be insignificant.  Aren’t they?

I like to think I’m functioning fairly well overall. (Clearly my denial mechanism is strong!)  Does it really matter if I ignore the little stuff?  How much difference can it make if I just let it remain in the ever-playing loop?  Then, I thought of an oyster.  A grain of sand sneaks in and the process begins to cover it up.  Eventually layer after layer of hardness develops to wire around the teeny tiny irritant. 

I’m pretty sure the hard spots in my psyche aren’t nearly as lustrous and beautiful as a pearl.  Instead they’re like little lead weights that tether me.  So, I’m turning up the spotlight to illuminate even those tiny tunes on the internal muzak.  I may not be able to edit them all away, but I can keep it up until the play list is a top ten instead of a top twenty.